The day before we’re officially husband and wife…
Most weddings are traditionally planned a year or more in advance.
Nothing in my life has ever been on a traditional timeline though. And this is no different.
I met the love of my life 11 months ago. When I wasn’t looking, wasn’t prepared to ever fall in love and was absolutely certain there was no fairytale romance awaiting me. Also when I was still married (gasp!) to my ex.
I fell HARD and FAST, well, we both did.
Within a couple of weeks, we knew we were in love, talked about it, and planned to get married.
Over the next 8 months, we made the life changes necessary to make marrying eachother become a reality. We were both already in the process of ending our previous relationship when we met, so we formalized that and moved forward with eachother. We took care of all the paperwork, we moved in together, we built a life together, made memories together, and time just… passed.
We formally set the date and secured the venue only about 60 days prior to the wedding.
Now the wedding is tomorrow.
We are so in love, it is like a real life fairytale. I have no doubt that I want to spend the rest of my life as his wife.
But…..
Now it’s the day before and I am so incredibly nervous, excited yes, but also just a gigantic ball of nerves. I can’t take a complete deep breath, I’m shaking, I feel like throwing up. I got legitimately sick earlier this week. I am misreading words and sentences right and crying at Facebook posts and songs every five minutes. My eighteen year old daughter (who got married last month herself!) just tried to calm me down. “Mom, all of that fades away when you walk down the aisle and it’s just the two of you looking at each other.” Well honey, I sure hope so. Because at this rate, I don’t even know how I will walk down the aisle. In heels. Holding flowers. In a floor length gown.
My previous marriages, I did not experience this anxiety. There were no guests, no real ceremony, it feels very much like the first time and in so many ways it is.
So this is it, no time left to order anything else. Everything is set. Outfits are what they are. Reservations are set. Plans are made. This is happening. Gotta remember to pack everything, grab a few last minute items at a local store, and check into the hotel.
I’m getting married!!!
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