Today is September 19th. We did not move on September 1st. We will not be moving on October 1st. I am not sure when we will be moving, if it will be within our current county or out of state. In some ways I know even less than I knew when I last wrote. It’s very frustrating this not knowing. I am trying to be thankful. I am trying my very hardest to be grateful for what I do have and stop wishing and stressing over what I don’t have. Let’s do a little inventory.
I may or may not have a job by the end of this month, hell, by the end of the year- I don’t know when or if I am losing my job
I do not know when we are moving or where
Money very tight and there is no possibility short of a miracle in sight to change that
Our vehicle is too small and an adult has ride in the hatchback for us to go anywhere as a family which is embarrassing (not to mention illegal and fine worthy if we’re caught)
Our neighbors dislike us and we are uncomfortable letting our children play with their kids or even going outside to take the garbage out or go for a walk
What I do have:
Health- everyone in the family is reasonably healthy. this is something healthy people take for granted all the time, but read just one story of someone with cancer, a parent of a special needs child, someone with a handicap and you will better appreciate this very important thing. Health is huge.
Love- I am lucky to have an amazing husband and 4 amazing children. We argue, bicker and yell but we all love eachother very much.
Income- it may not be comfortable but we have one. yes, money is tight but nobody is going to bed hungry.
A vehicle- yes it’s too small, but we aren’t riding the bus!
One nice neighbor that recently made us homemade jam and spicy green beans
A home- we may not like it, but we have a roof over our heads.
On pretty much every front, there is a positive way of looking at what feels like a negative most of the time. I am working hard to train myself to see the glass as half full instead of half empty. We want so much yet we are so blessed and things could be so much worse. That is something I am reminding myself of daily.
“Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns; I am thankful that thorns have roses.” ~Alphonse Carr